Don't be careless, just Careless.
Girls that want to find a sensitive guy that doesnt mind going shopping,
you cant have him, he has a boyfriend.
^Can't even comment, im so torn up about Ryans death.
I'm right here. She doesnt need or love you. And i'm still... Right here.
Give me one chance, I swear I wont let you down.
Don't be with someone if your heart stops every time the phone rings,
because you think they're going to dump you.
I'm not saying I want to marry him, I just want to be givin a fucking chance.
You give every fifteen year old whore a chance but me?
yeah, I'm pushing eighteen and still freakin waiting.
there will come a point when I wont remember why I loved you in the first place,
and when that day comes. YOU.WILL.BE.SO.SORRY.
How am I suppose to keep trying,
When you dont even care when i'm crying?
I'm going to find a boy that cant stand when I cry,
and then I'm never going to let him go.
Try harder.
I'm not at my end, not even close.
You haven't even began to see the fight from me.
Everyone acts as if I'm the plague lately.
Finding yourself is harder than it looks.
Lul, I'm insecure and its not easy hiding that shit.
I'm done waiting for 11:11
If he isnt greatful, leave him.
The lessons that are easily learned are often learned over and over again.
Don't feel sorry for me.
I don't feel fucking lovely.
If I ignored you as much as you ignored me, well nothing would really happen
because you don't really care.
I'm not waiting to become anything, I'm a work in progress,
If you don't like what you see, then your never going to like me.
I am a little crazy when it comes to him.
Last but not least.
Okay so you probably all know Ryan Dunn died this morning. Yes he was from jackass but I know him from viva la bam and his show homewrecker. I loved this dude, its not like a little celebrity crush thing, I didn't think he was hot. I just thought he was really really funny. When I heard about this I thought it was a jackass joke. Turns out it probably most likely is not. Its just kinda hard to deal with the fact that he is dead. Its like no one thinks that our generations jokester, singers, actors, leading people will die. I'm not going to sit here and say he was like a brother, because I never met the guy but its hard for me to accept this because I've watched him since I was like nine. I watched Viva La Bam when I had 0 friends. Thats how I spent my time. I saw his last tweet. Thats so hard to believe that we could only watch it happen. If someone would have said stop, would he? no. Lots of people are devestated over this and as mad as I would be. I hope that its all a big joke. Even though its not looking like it.
Anyhow.
My life lately has been kinda fucked up. My big trip to Dallas TX for warped tour is this friday and I officailly have 307 dollars. Proud of myself for that by the way. I have my tickets i have gas money I have spending money. I've been looking up cheap gas prices from here to their and let me tell you this 4 bucks a gallon or dang near, is freaking raping me. My truck gets good gas milleage but if you think about it 30 bucks isn't even 10 gallons. That was the good part of my week, finding out were i stand with my trip. But. My gramma had a stroke last week on thursday morning and she is now in St. anthonies hospital with a paralyzed arm. I bawled. I am not ready for anything to happen to my grandma and I never will be ready. I am trying so hard to believe that she will gain full access to that arm back and then this will finnaly be it. After 2 spells with cancer, countless surgerys, and a stroke, this will be it she will be immortal. She will be able to attend my gradaution, my wedding, my kids, my first home, my everything. Even though I know that probably wont happen, its still how I picture it in my head. Also. My brothers boyfriend cheated on him like with over 5 guys and Craig packed his shit and came home... for a day. Now he's back up there with him, how do I nicely tell my brother to stop being a slut?... He seems to only hang out with guys who have money and people who have things already settled for themsellves. like he doesnt understand you have to EARN that stuff. My kinda sorta boyfriend Tyler didnt check up on me or come over, or text, or anything to see how I was doing the day after my grammas stroke. I got PISSED. He said i had no reason. I told him we were threw. he has been kissing ass ever since. I dont know where me and him stand half the time with all these damn fights.
Lastly.
I got a puppy, his name is Gizmo,
He's super cute and loves walks and hates french fries, he has helped me lose five pounds since getting him last tuesday.
Leave me some feedback guys, what do you want my next blog to be about? Love, friends, heartbreak, fun, summer, parties? you name it. please I need something besides alot of views, it makes me feel like you don't like my blogs at all :(
